I struggle almost daily with how much time is really needed online. It seems that once I get on the computer it's like a snowball effect and the next thing I know, I've been online for hours. My daughter and I watched a great movie the other day. We were discussing how new the Internet was back then. I told her that I remember not wanting to get the Internet when I first heard about it because I thought it would be too much of a distraction. Now here it is, thirteen years later and I feel that it is a distraction.
I love to find inspiration on here by reading other blogs and I love the communities that I am a part of. But what happens when life gets so busy that there isn't time. How do you catch up on the blogs you've missed? I find myself in constant battle as to if and when I should turn on the computer. Will it turn into one of those mornings where I get caught up in the online world? Don't I have enough to do in the real world? Sometimes I find that it is like a fantasy or an adventure to keep up with people's blogs and then follow the path to another blog, then another before I know it I have spent time traveling through other people's lives and have lost valuable time in mine. What are the kids doing while I spend this time on a faraway adventure and why aren't I leading them on an adventure?
My intention this morning was to type up another daybook, but these words just came out. I am beginning to hate my blackberry. I find that I am addicted to the red light. Once it begins flashing I have to find out why. Is it an email, text? I find myself longing for the old phones with no other function but phone calls. Is this crazy? How often do my children see me with a screen in front of my face and what kind of example is this?
I need to spend some time in deep prayer about this because I really feel God calling me to more time away from this beautiful tool of the Internet world to spend more time living in my world with my beautiful family.
Wow, I didn't see this coming this morning. I am still going to type up my daybook, but now with a much clearer mind! Thanks be to God.