Monday, January 11, 2010

The journey

Lately I have been feeling very inadequate in so many ways. Around the house, in the school room, as a wife. Now in all fairness life has been very full and stressful, but that stress has left us now and I still feel like I'm so far behind in everything. I feel that my spiritual life needs to be so much more. I feel like I'm searching and searching trying to find inner peace. Then at Mass on Saturday night, it hit me. Like a ton of bricks. We always need to be searching because once the search is over, we have reached our destination. Once we reach the end of the journey, we're home. I want my home to be in Heaven with our Lord. I need Him to be complete. We are all on our own journeys, but they will all lead us home if we choose the right road to follow. I guess what I realized is that I should never feel adequate. If I did, then where would I have left to go? I always need to improve myself, I always need to grow. It is when we stop growing that we die and I really don't want to die. I want to live eternally with My Father in Heaven. My creator who calls me to Him every day. I just need to live in the moment and follow the journey He leads me on. Do the best that I can do and realize that I need to search, and I need to be more than who I am now. It is only through Christ that I find strength and peace. I need to see myself through His eyes. It is for Him that I live, serve and love.

Enjoy your journey and find peace along the way.